Epic fail

I feel like a failure, which has been a common, recurring emotion when it comes to weight loss. I never seem to reach my goal. I have been mentally evaluating what I can do to have more success. This blog is a mission statement of sorts. I hope that by publishing it, I will be more accountable.

Obstacle 1: Being surrounded by non-supportive people
Solution: I need to focus on the people that do support me. The only drawback to that is that I don't get to interact with other people very often. The bright side is that the person I see the most of, James, is the most supportive person I have around me.

Obstacle 2: Lack of motivation
Solution: I'm hoping that by making my goals public, I will be motivated to not look like a schmuck by not making strides towards them.

Obstacle 3: Mommy guilt
Solution: I have no idea. I want to spend as much time as I can with Perrin, especially over the summer. I leave to go running but I have a hard time breaking away to do anything else. I can't really exercise with him around because then I don't get anything done.

Obstacle 4: Unrealistic goals
Solution: I'm trying to focus on what is an attainable goal for myself. I miss the days where working out was my job (talk about multi-tasking). I would love nothing more than to slide back into the size 4 dress I wore to my rehearsal dinner. I feel overwhelmingly guilty for letting myself go from what I used to be to what I am now. However, I don't know that a size 4 is realistic. But, I don't know what would be realistic. I want my pooch to go away. But I don't know that it will after having a baby (and worse, a c-section).

Obstacle 5: Comparison
Solution: There are some things I need to accept. Losing weight is a lot harder now that it was when I was nursing. So, women who are nursing won't be faced with the same task as I am when it comes to losing weight. I can't control genetics either. I'm scientifically bound to certain things on a molecular level. Just like I will never be tall, there are certain characteristics that I can only help to improve rather than eliminate. I don't have the resources that others do. I don't have enough say in the food in my house or the food budget to have the foods I want readily available.

So, I'm hoping that by identifying these obstacles and potential solutions I can get myself back on track. The tough thing is that many of these obstacles involve other people. I can only do my best and hope that it will lead me to success.